why?
oct 27, 2025
creativity has been a core part of my identity for as long as i can remember. lately i’ve been gravitating more toward creative spaces and people, which has had two effects on me: 1) i realize i have nothing creative to show right now, for no particular reason, and 2) i’ve met some very friendly creative people who have inspired me to take a leap.
there are a million reasons to not create. we get busy, we lose inspiration. for me it’s perfectionism. i set arbitrarily high and overly prescribed standards for myself, and when the ideas aren’t flowing to match them, i get scared and freeze.
but that misses reality. i’ve come to value the ink thrown down on the page. it’s probably better than you think. and if it’s not, that’s just a rep we’ve gotten through. the bad comes with the good, and vice versa. all of it is creative iteration. you’ll land on different possibilities, hidden behind doors you would never have opened if you'd just prescribed one answer.
i saw a post recently that said “i will do literally anything for any reason,” and i’ve been striving to live by that. in the creative drought i’ve been in, the pressure is off. anything feels better than zero. and as someone with ocd, it feels good to just do “whatever.” it’s an exposure.
plus i’m surrounded by supportive, inspirational people. i can’t lose. it helps to not be comparing myself to others, but rather be inspired by them.
there’s one way of thinking that would say to only put out work that feels authentic and aligned for me. that’s a slippery slope to perfectionism. so i’ll aim to just throw shit out. be prolific.
i’m an adult with free will and disposable income. my frontal lobe feels a little more formed.
i love fashion. it’s how we feel ourselves. it’s how we signal to others. it’s a chance to stand out, fit in, or somehow both. it’s a chance to create or curate, rather than simply consume. it’s a chance to tap into the past, rather than tapping into natural resources.
i’ve taken in a lot of inputs. and they’ve marinated subconsciously.
and as a way to honor someone who had far too little time to create, but made a massive impact anyway.
